It’s been kind of tough being in the bottom three, but I built up a stamina for it, got a little tougher each time, and finally, learned how to control the emotions that were coming from the whole situation.
For this last time, it was definitely nerve-wracking because none of us knew what was going on and how they were separating the groups and sending us over to different sides of the stage - we didn’t know if we were safe.
But it was definitely a shock for me to go home. I wish I wouldn’t have left so soon. I wanted to make top five, but I am happy that Brooke’s still in the competition because she’s one of my best friends.
Lasting Longer Than Simon Thought
I started out kind of weak. I was struggling the first three weeks on being sick, and recovering took a while. I think I outlasted what he thought because I started getting stronger towards the end, and I was getting in the comfort zone of some of the songs that I’ve been used to.
I was starting to come out of the shell and sing the songs that I’m comfortable with and the ones that I knew that I could sing well. He saw that a couple times, and unfortunately, it ended when I had to leave, but I thought my performance was pretty strong this past week, so I’m happy I went out on that note. I was a little disappointed to go this soon because I thought I at least had another week in me.
Being Proposed To On National TV
I had mentioned it to my boyfriend a long time ago about how it would be cool if we ever got married, if he would propose to me on American Idol. He was like, “There is no way I would ever get in front of that many people and do that.” But last night, it was kind of crazy because he got put on the spot, and he ended up pulling through. I don’t think he wanted to pull out of it, so he did it.
My Top Three
I kind of don’t have a top three because the fact that it proved to me that anybody can go, and it’s anyone's playing field since Michael Johns last week. So it just goes to show you that the people that you think will be safe aren’t, and they can go at anytime. I really don’t know. All of them have their own unique sound and tons of talent, and I don’t know which one will be number one, but I know they’ll all have great careers.
I’ve learned so much from my experience. It’s been amazing. I’ve learned all different kinds of stress levels I’ve never known in my life. I learned how to make friends and what singers go through to perform every week and learn songs every week and sing in front of thousands or millions of people.
I learned a lot about controlling your emotions and just having to handle pressure – but dealing with also having tons of stuff to do. It’s very, very fun. Even though you’re tired, you get to do so much stuff you never would – you never imagine you’d be able to do until you got on the show. So there’s so much to learn from it, and I’m just thankful for every moment of it.
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