Confessions

Loneliness and Solitude

Date: November 13, 2007
Posted by: Jasbina Sekhon-Misir
(Mississauga / CA)

Loneliness is different from solitude because it is unwilling.

I doubt I could intelligently make an argument with any psychologist that loneliness is perpetuated by the individual suffering from its devastating symptoms willingly, but perhaps it isn't that simple.

**First I would like to state that I am only writing this because I am experiencing a painful amount of loneliness and I am attempting to come to peace with and/or understand what this state is.
I am not in any way trying to judge or condemn those experiencing loneliness, how could I? That would be cruel and pathetic.**

Control, or lack of , the amount of time you are alone seems to be the reason one is lonely.
Will psychotherapy or pharmaco-therapy once again put me in control? I have pets I dearly love to provide me with comfort... I often fear I am projecting my own neurosis on my interactions with the kitten in particular. I am on fistfuls of pharmaceuticals and my therapist has known my very well for the last seven years. I am only 21.

Loneliness is akin to an unwanted orphan dragging with it a well-worn rag-doll, the the doll being the noxious scent of desperation. I know this, and I feel like everyone sees my inability to interact with others normally.
I don't want to cling, or become emotional... so I avoid people more and more.

I wish I could convince myself that loneliness is something I can control.


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