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Didier: I had to look for a while before I found a way to get HIV. Then, finally, I got the "opportunity" I was hoping for. I read in one of the chat rooms for gays I used to check out that there was going to be a "conversion party" on the weekend. I told them I wanted to go and, after a few e-mails back and forth, I was given the green light.
We agreed to meet at a council flat in south London. The night was cold. The furniture in the flat had been rearranged in order to accommodate the crowd - fourteen muscular gay men in their mid- thirties. A flat screen television, which dominated the room, was playing porno movies. Drinks and snacks were set out in a big coffee table, just as in a regular party. Six frenzied hours of uninterrupted sex, drugs and alcohol.
At the end of the night, the crowd began to slowly dwindle. Some left, a few fell asleep on a couch, the master bedroom, or any other suitable corner. But I was in the toilet. Even though the small tiled room was cold, I was sweating because of the cocktail of Ecstasy, cocaine, marijuana and vodka I had taken. As I looked at myself at the mirror, I knew that I had got what I had come for.
Two months later, the doctor in the Saint Mary's Hospital told me I was HIV-positive.
Why did I do it? It's never been because I wanted to commit suicide and end my life just like that. I guess I was going through a very difficult period in my life on a mental and spiritual level.
I arrived in London in 1998, when I was 25 years old.
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I was really hoping this
By Richard Day Gore, May 21, 2007 at 09:39I was really hoping this would turn out to be an urban legend. There's simply no end to the stupid things people will do in order to "belong."
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I think stories often lead
By luyen, May 21, 2007 at 13:09I think stories often lead people to fixed-conclusions, but we have to remember that this whole "bug-chasing" thing really consists of individuals, probably very few individuals who do this sort of thing...
What's their motivation for doing it? Maybe it's akin to someone skydiving, maybe it's more like someone with suicidal emotions? Who's to say?
Therefore i don't think we can pigeon-hole, even the small minority of gay men who seek this kind of activity, despite the sensationalism of this story.
There's no difference to me, between someone who overdoses on pills, shoots themselves, takes depressants, or goes 'bug-chasing' - due to many reasons no doubt, they have lost the perspective of why this human life is so valuable, and once lost, what then?
It's certainly is sad, and to me, personally anyway, is indicative that there are very few beacons along the way to keep people from straying into destructive behavior, in the family unit, communities, friends, organizations of any kind...you do have to wonder.
this is just stupid, and i
By oh deary me, May 12, 2007 at 06:32this is just stupid, and i cant believe that in a world that`s supposedly civilized something like this is happening. they`re not just risking their own lives, but potentially everyone elses! if HIV continues to spread we`re gonna have a worldwide epidemic on our hands. millions will die just so these morons can get their sexual kicks.
this will also cost the health services millions! ordinary people will have to pay more in taxes for this moronic hobby.
and to say that it`s okay because "smoking is dangerous too" is just plain ignorant. that`s like saying "well they ruined their lives so why cant we?"
grow up and get a damn hobby. i`m all for gay rights and such but this is just retarded. they give gays a bad name
I can't believe this is
By Belinda, July 26, 2006 at 12:21I can't believe this is actually happening. I wonder if Health Authorities are aware of this dangerous new craziness.