Job Objective:
•Cope with humiliation, dehumanization
•Put up with racism, ethnic stereotyping, sexual violence
•Penetrated orally, anally, vaginally
•Carry out bondage, whips, torture and physical beatings when requested
•Photographed or filmed performing different acts
Job Hazards:
•Psychological trauma or post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD)
•Anxiety, emotional numbing
•Physical, verbal, sexual, mental and spiritual abuse
•Violent captivity or kidnapping may occur
•Non-payment and rape
•Hospitalization due to rape, cuts, bruises, broken bones, suffocation and death
•Sexual diseases and/or pregnancy
•Accusations of rape may not be taken seriously by local police department
•Relationships and sex life at home will never be the same
Wages:
•Negotiable
If this sounds appealing, the scrutiny of prostitution might be of interest to you. As a former sex trade worker, I've seen it all. However, the everyday life of prostitution is distant from most of you. No matter what the arrangements are in the sex industry, one way or another, a prostitute will have to tolerate a little of the above whether they realize it or not. When I was asked what I did for a living, to avoid embarrassment, I used to tell them I was a sales lady. That way, it was a form of the truth.
Recently, I was brought back to thinking about my past life as a prostitute because I found myself struggling financially. I've never had to worry about money until now. Being off the street now for many years and never wanting to go back to that lifestyle, I'm searching for new ways to manage.
After leaving the street life, I held a part time job as an 'in home support worker' or 'care aide' for a lady with Multpiple Sclerosis. I worked for her for four years. She knew what I used to do for a living, what I've been through and, without judgment, she gave me a job assisting her.




Comments
To put up with all kinds of
By Cree woman, May 15, 2007 at 14:46To put up with all kinds of feedback in life unfortunately means taking on criticisms as well. I go into Orato just to read your stories Pauline. My skin and heritage reflect who I am, First Nation. It takes a lot of guts to do what you are doing and I honor and have a great deal of respect for you. My life's road did not lead me down the road that you have walked- far from it. Nevertheless, I am not unaware of pain, neglect, and fear, I think that there are very few First Nation's who are exempt from these factors. I want to share this with you for I, too, often wonder why so many of our women choose the streets? Maybe it's because we too have been largely displaced in our roles-thanks to history. I endeavor, always, to be a model for our brothers and sisters. To find our pride in our culture, our inheritance and the beauty and strength that is there waiting for each and every one of us - if we just take the time to look. Mankind is entering a new phase - one that which, I believe, First Nations will be called upon to take part in. We need to prepare. You are one of many who are leading the way - keep growing, keep learning, don't forget to laugh at least once a day, don't give up. I'm cheering you on.
Your sister in Spirit
Cree Woman
Jackie - thanks for giving
By Heather Wallace, May 16, 2007 at 10:37Jackie - thanks for giving Pauline a pat on the back. She deserves more of them. I find a lot of the feedback she gets comes down too hard on her. Pauline's honesty is staggering at times, and she is teaching us so much. I think some people just can't handle her truth.
Pauline - hope you're doing well and on the mend. I know your health has been shaky lately. We are thinking of you and looking forward to your next installment.
Heather Wallace
senior editor
Orato.com
I try to keep an open mind
By Cree woman, May 22, 2007 at 13:53I try to keep an open mind to people's comments. I think people need to seek first to educate themselves before speaking/writing.
Pauline, hope your health gets to where you need it to be. Keep up the incredible writing journey you're on, you and Trisha.
I find myself very confused
By passionateobserver, May 11, 2007 at 08:32I find myself very confused with your story you seem to speak so negatively about the lifestyle of being a prostitute, but one or two stories ago you were saying it should be legalized.
I find it hard to read your stories because you seem so pissed off and blaming everyone else but never really seem to take responsibility for any of your actions. I hope your healing journey takes you even farther along as you walk through this trial and i hope your stories reflect that change.