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Heartbreak, Punches, And A Late Night Police Chase

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It always seems like a good idea at the time. Photo by Kyle Phillips.


...suddenly, I knew. Oh my God. Please no. Not again... '
By Citizen Correspondent J Jenners
Date Posted: 08/13/08
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I have a penchant for dating the wrong guy. Not the bad boy or the loser without a job...nothing that mundane. My special gift is falling for men who haven't yet discovered the truth about themselves - sometimes that truth is that they are gay. This is the story of one of the most painful moments of my past, but also one of the most incredible.

I rose, a bit unsteadily, from the table where we had been sitting all night, slamming tequila shots and drinking pitchers of light beer. I could see him chatting with the group of three young, lithe hotties that had been eying him all night. They were circled around him, smiling their cute little skinny smiles and tossing their long, skinny hair. I was in a heady cloud of jealous, simmering rage. The tequila was about to get its job done; I could feel a “scene” brewing.

He was oblivious, of course. I gripped the edge of the table while the spins subsided. He was always oblivious. Three years of supposed “friendship” – ups, downs, jealousy on both sides, and even one shockingly intense drunken kiss a year and a half previously – and somehow I was still hooked.

Hooked on the possibility of "what if" - the possibility that "we" would be an “us” soon. I suddenly felt very foolish - stupid even – and if there’s one emotion more dangerous than jealousy, it’s feeling foolish and stupid. I don’t like to be wrong…ever. It’s a stubborn German thing; I come by it honestly, just ask anyone who knows my dad, my grandpa, or half of the town I hail as home. And I was dangerously close to feeling stupid.

I grabbed my purse and made my way passed them and outside. I knew he would follow me; he always did. Sure enough, not 30 seconds later, he was outside the bar coming my way, his tittering entourage huddled by the door.

“You okay?” He looked sincere. I glowered at him. A look of confusion flashed across his face and his usually clear blue eyes darkened a shade. I knew I had him now. “What did I do?


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Re: Heartbreak, Punches, And A Late Night Police Chase

By Nsrtclvrnameher, August 29, 2008 at 12:57

You're obviously an intelligent girl with a large lexicon, but I guess shittiness doesn't discriminate for any reason. I'm curious, are you two still friends?

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