Journey As A Scientologist: To OT3 And Back

For many years I was a Scientologist and although the OT3 story is now freely available on the Internet, I, like most Scientologists, had no idea what I was in for.

I made a legally and morally binding commitment to 'confidentiality' before having the story revealed to me, so I won't tell you the details ... but it's easy enough to find.

What I will you is that I am no longer a Scientologist and that I never cried so much with a complete and utter feeling of betrayal as I did on the day that I finally read the OT3 'data'.

I was in a highly secured and confidential course room and I held my response in until I was 'off-base' and in the safety of my own bedroom that night, where I was overcome with profound waves of grief, betrayal and such a deep and profound loss of dignity for having been drawn in to such a ludicrous example of The Emperor's New Clothes.

I kept all of this to myself because I just couldn't believe and comprehend the immensity of what I had just done to both myself and my family by committing to such a purpose. I had sensed it coming during OT2, finding certain bits of 'data' on that mysterious level and very difficult to accept.

I was so confused with literally nowhere else to go that I contained my response and innermost opinion, deciding to 'keep my Auditor Hat on' as I had been trained to do and just did the next step as required. But as confused as I was, I also made a commitment to myself that I would discover and discern my own truth by being non-resistant to any ideas.

It was around then, between 'solo sessions,' that I listened to a taped L.