Friends and family have cautioned me that attending the Pickton trial may be traumatic for me - a kind of nightmare reminder of an ugly time of my life. But, my life experiences have toughened me, and I welcome this challenge. I've learned to be an open-minded, down-to-earth kind of gal. I take things as they come. I've come a long way in understanding that it is not important what others think of me, it's what I think of myself that matters most.
I have read published, harsh opinions which condemn the street life, such as Orato contributor Steve Sanborn's: "Prostitution hurts women and children and foments abortions, spreads diseases and most importantly, offends God." Part of me is disgusted by such simplistic views. Whatever happened to the important principle: "Don't judge someone until you walk a mile in their moccasins?"
There's no doubt that women and children get hurt. Disease is part of the reality. Needles spread diseases. Most sex trade workers try to adopt safe practices. But the pain of living a life trapped in the empty practice of selling your body and soul for the price of a fix, is something that shouldn't be dismissed as a simple issue of poor choice.
It's also a good thing I'm a minister's daughter, because offending God by prostitution is out of the question. God loves everyone; he loved Mary Magdalene and she was a prostitute. It's in the bible.
One of my girlfriends is worried about me losing anonymity. My family supports me because that's what family does. I have nothing to hide about my past. I've forgiven myself.




Comments
Dearest Pauline, I am so
By Hazel8500, January 24, 2007 at 10:53Dearest Pauline,
I am so grateful that you made it out of the life, and created a healthful life for your self. The fact that you've come back to speak for those who couldn't make it out is so above and beyond the normal call of duty. Not only are you honoring the voices that have been silenced, you are also an example (like it or not) of the possibilities open to women and men left in the trade who may want or need, an inspiration.
I just wanted to let you know, you have my full support in your endeavor, and I am rooting for your successful completion of this very long and ardorous assignment.
With admiration and affection,
Hazel Main.
Even in the deepest, darkest
By roadie954, January 21, 2007 at 17:06Even in the deepest, darkest corners of our world the inhabitants are still human and must not be forgoten nor forsaken. Strength to you Pauline.
thanks Pauline for doing
By cinnamon52, January 21, 2007 at 19:48thanks Pauline for doing this, i admire your strength, i too used to work the streets, but unlike most was not addicted to the needle, i just wanted to feed my children.
Very good of you. We liked
By Afghan, January 20, 2007 at 01:37Very good of you. We liked your brave steps and what you feel and think for the goodness of society. Life is to be lived with bravity and positive thinking.