Sometimes hate can lead you to love.
The deep anxiety of my school years - getting up early every morning, spending the day cloistered in classrooms, being held hostage by oppressive, tedious, punitive and authoritarian adults, not being able to move around, explore and play - caused me to lead the somewhat bohemian lifestyle I have now. This is the life I love, of comparative freedom, the life as a freelance artist.
School was a hateful place. From a little schoolhouse in England to huge faceless schools in Boston, then Ottawa, it was all jail to me. I would sit staring out of the windows, swearing that when I grew up I would free all children from the injustice of the prison system called school. I changed institutions constantly, always suffering dull, oppressive, stupid or malicious teachers. I remember as a little 8-year-old British girl, new to Ottawa, lining up with my frightened sisters to receive the strap from a teaching nun because we were late. I loathed the school system so much that when I was 10 years old my parents took me to check out a small school run by shrinks for rich distressed kids in a quaint old house in downtown Ottawa.
It was the looms of colored wool and bottles of paint which attracted me. I begged to be allowed to go, and they were happy to oblige. But it was just a mirage. We never did do much art once I was in their clutches - not that I can remember. After two years of tutelage under those, mentally ill teachers - that's how I viewed them as a child - it was onto high school.



